- Sheryl Sandberg (Lean In: Women, Work, and the Will to Lead)
- (via brutalgeneration)
Just had one of the most important moments of clarity in my life. Must write it down now so i don’t forget it, considering i am a bit high.
That elusive element that attracts me to these guys who otherwise aren’t my type has almost nothing to do with them and everything to do with me. Because i have been mistreated my whole life by the people who should have been by my side, and consequently feel of value to no-one, including myself, I am dosed with the most addictive, comforting drug when you come into my life; self-worth. Because you navigate me with interest and enthusiasm i feel i suddenly have value, if someone not only cares enough to find out, but to do so eagerly. And so if you think i have worth, i start to believe i have worth, and if i believe that, i have faith that other people will see value in me too, which allows me to feel worthy of life, and of company. Then i stop asking for permission (figuratively) and am able to live my life how i truly wish to live it, without pressure, without consciousness. So when you leave my life, my self-worth and confidence leaves with you. I must painfully withdraw from the drug you didn’t even know you got me addicted too.